Dear Reader,
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Somewhere in St. John/St. Joseph, Barbados 2008 |
Thanks for visiting my website.
This is an experiment...
I've always been artistic, but for a long time I thought I had to just focus on one aspect of "art". Three years ago, I found myself bored, drained and uninspired, and for a long time, I had no clue what was wrong with me.
I tried a number of remedies from: a vacation, to eating comfort food, self-help books, personality tests and strength finder quizzes, to losing myself in hours of mindless TV, but nothing worked! To some this might sound sacrilegious but, I even read scripture and listened to Worship Music and that didn't work either! It got so bad that for almost two years I was so paralyzed, despondent and disillusioned that it was a struggle to even get out of bed and I lost the desire to do ANYTHING, never mind something artistic!
I tried a number of remedies from: a vacation, to eating comfort food, self-help books, personality tests and strength finder quizzes, to losing myself in hours of mindless TV, but nothing worked! To some this might sound sacrilegious but, I even read scripture and listened to Worship Music and that didn't work either! It got so bad that for almost two years I was so paralyzed, despondent and disillusioned that it was a struggle to even get out of bed and I lost the desire to do ANYTHING, never mind something artistic!
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Me- I think I was 5 or 6. |
Skipping a lot of details in between there, (maybe some day I'll have the guts to share it all...) I remember sitting down one day and wondering what happened to the bright eyed girl I used to be. Where had she gone? Wherever she went, she took with her all my confidence, excitement, creativity, sense of adventure, love and hope. I thought about this for months and months and the only conclusion I could come to was that I was no longer as open and free as she was.
I was playing it safe because of fear and, in doing so, I closed myself off from the wonderful world of possibility!
So, I decided to ignore the old saying: "Jack of all trades and master of none" and paint again, take photos again, and bake again-all at the same time! I'm still working up the courage to dance again and yes, to sing again...but hey, I'm a work in progress! ;-)
So, this site/blog, whatever you want to call it, is my way of sharing my journey with someone else. I figure my experiences, mistakes made and lessons learnt can at least let someone know they aren't alone, and that they aren't so peculiar after all..... Maybe someone may even find the "art" on here pleasing!
Anyways....By no means can I profess to have the golden answer to fix the mysterious woes of the artistic mind, but I can say that my journey has been somewhat better since I decide to step out of the box of my own making and colour outside of the lines.
I hope you find the courage to do so too.
With all the love I have to give,
Janelle
